The Truth Behind…

It has been a while, since i write.

I guess my whole life, has taken its tolls these past months.

The fact that I want to avoid those people that keep reading my blogs with negative thoughts and narrow minds (but funny things they “hate” my blogs but keep reading it…^^~), .. I was just suddenly lost my passion in writing and reading. I just want to be in the situation where I dont feel anything, specially not feeling the pain from my illness or my heartbrokens moments.

I dont want to be a cry baby, for thus i’m still luckier that others.

But… sometime.

It can be so lonely to bear illness and it can be so lonely when friends and family already got used to the fact you are a cheerful and happy-goers person. At the time you cried and screamed out, they would just frown out their forehead and asked “what’s wrong with you? it’s not you” or “is it that painful until you cry that much?”.

Yeach, it can be lonely days.

When it does, i will turn into the High Divine Power above me, Praying and asking for help. Yup. the Divine Power. God. That might laugh at me and said something like “Yeah right, you always come to me when you have no more way out or everything when wrong, but you are lazy to go to church” (hehe, I know He wont say that…).

But again, those moments makes me feel empty and alone.

It’s not easy. Some people around understand, some people just don’t and that makes it even harder.

 

I’m overwhelmed too, these days.

By the truth and the facts that i still have some old friends that helping me and lending me their hearts, and supporting me to go through this (thank you, guys, you know who you are). I might not able to repay you all, now. But someday, somehow (and i will) repay you all back.

I love to feel this way. I know the feeling will be gone soon and I will be back feeling lonely again. But these kindness from some old and best friends of mine become the truth behind the Divine intervention.

(For all my friends and everybody that help me, going through the surgery and supporting me all the way, -Thank You.-)

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