:: Counting Blessings :: –Second Opinion…–

I’m stranded behind a horizon line
trying to be something true… true to myself.

I’m grounded and got my broken wings clipped
But I do believe …Someday I’ll fly, I’ll soar.
I’ll be something much more ….

Why is it not the time?  What is there more to learn?
I’ve shed this skin I’ve been tripping in
And I’ve never quite returned to the old me….

I’m tangled to the flame but I do believe I’ll got more power from the burned.

(another opinion, another verdict, what’s the different?…I’m Ready)

-Thank You, John Mayer^^~-

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:: Counting Blessings :: –Except…–

I always proclamed that 1990-1998 is the years where grew into ’someone else’. The little girl that never afraid or worry about anything. Basically got everything. She’s gone. 1990-1998 she’s gradually not there anymore.

I always knew that 1999-2001 is "dark ages" of my life. Where’s lonelyness is number one in my list, others’ just misery, pain and ignorances from the people that very dearest and close to my heart.

2001, is that year. Where that little girl completely lost. Completely gone.

I always believe that 2001-2004 was the one of the greatest era of my life. ANother chance. To pick up again "another" mask. A strong young lady, a hardworker, a savy (very2 savy) girl, Again–a daughter, a sister. Once More—A friend indeed.

But 2001-2004, my belief was wrong, It’s not the greatest era, it’s a greatest pretender…a greatest runaway path.

I always tell my self that 2004-2006, "Is it the right decision? Are you ready? Are you strong enough to come back to them…" 2004-2006, the tears are more than those years above…

I don’t know what I should believe, what I should think?

I don’t know why everybody keep telling me that i shouldn’t be lonely? that they’ll protect me and always love me.

….well they are lying. I know that. 1998-Now….I learn not to trust anyone.

except you God.  I believe only with God’s paths and choices for me. As I believe in Him, will gave me the best in everything. Including Great Family and Friends.

(the doctor verdict " Unknown Mass on Vital area of Vertebrate and  Hey!!, also A very BIG Hole at Heart")

GBU all.

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