SMACK!
Lost My Wallet, Last Weekend…*sigh* ATMz, CCz, IDz, Money…Mementoz (Childhood Picz, Precious Cards…)…Arghh….Careless Me. I’m Okay with ATMs and CCs…but all of those Mementoz, It’s gone.
Perfectly, I don’t have any access/money all the weekend. Yeach, yeach..
Everyone told me,"It’s okay, you lost this one…big good things will come to u afterward.."….^^~_ (Sounds Good!)
I’m pretty "beat up" by my works and school lately, so many things so little time.
I want to do 100% for each, works and school…But I’ll need 25 hours 8 days a week. I feel "useless" since i can do better for both. I know I’m dissapointing lotz of people, specially my Brothers and my Mom (Where I’m still puting up those "dissapointments" of mine that should’ve gone long time ….). Also My Best Friendz, where i’m a lil (just a little…) taking them for granted, not giving them same time as for my activities… And my Love one, for always feeding up jelaousy, hatred and not being the one that he deserve.
I feel lost, again….lately.
What do I want? Why Am I Asking Too Much (like Always)? I just want to be simple. But with all, with everything wrong-doing that I’ve done. After all the heartaches that I’ve made to everyone around. Will I able to make it up? Do I still have that what it so called "2nd chance"? (or…maybe 3rd, 4th….for me)
"Be Thankful, Forgive and Forget…Be Thankful….Be More Thankful"
I’m repeating it in my mind every secs.
Because I’m still one of the luckiest person on earth…
To be able to have place to stay, Nice clothes to wear, Food to eat, Family, Love, Able to go back to school, Best-Soulmate Friends-Good Friends around (although we might "forgeting" each others sometime…)….Good Jobs.
What else? …(Ah.. Me, The "Drama Queen"…)
…I wish I can erase those wrong-doings. At least being forgiven…as I try to be more forgiven to everyone else….try to simplyfies things and seeing it from different prespective…
"Be Thankful, Forgive and Forget…Be Thankful….Be More Thankful"
Last Week, at a Well-KNown Pastry and Bakery Shop…while queueing to pay a birthday cake, I saw a lady, holding her baby. Her cloth was clean. But you just can see probably that the only "nice" cloth she has. She bought a 10 x 10 cm Cake and… paid that with a bunch of coins…..Was she bought that for her child? Was she had a special day so she gather all her money/savings just to buy that cake that will be expensive for her?….
Wow….Something "SMACK" my Heart….
I dont even have to gather all my coins to buy something… (although I lost some money due to "LOSING PRECIOUS WALLET TRAGEDY"…). I just can treat my self with everything I want for my special day (of course not like buying myself a house…haha!)…I’m talking about… I can just go out and buy a BIG CAKE (and still can choose whether I go for Black Forest or Tiramisu or Triple Hot Fudge Chocolates with Triple Layer of Chocos hmmmm….), or go to Salon and ask my hairstylist to curl my hair (without any ocassion….just because i want it for so long already…:P)….or on my "stressfull day" just go to ZARA Store and going NUTZ…:P
Maybe God should SMACK my Heart and Head ….more.
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