What loneliness is more lonely than ….
Hey^^Hey^^… It’s me, the usual whining 
from few days ago.
…it’s not a Big issue, but it happened … (again and again….)
Few times, once-my close someone running through hacking to my e-mails and Yahoo Messengers….even my Friendster Messages…checkin` up my cellphone Inbox, …all without my permission, without me knowing.
And When I found out he did…I just try to understand why he did that.
Many times, a dearest person in my life;…screening through my cellphone’s Inbox and call list, following me around when I’m on the phone…basically listening to the conversation and asked afterward what and who I’ve been talking to….all without my permission, without me knowing.
And When I realized that she did….I just try to find one positive good reason why she always did that.
Not just Once, a close person that I really trust and look up to…redirect my e-mails into his inbox, enabling my YM Archives (–from my laptop)…reading all my emails and archives,…(ach, don’t forget to add) screening through my cellphone’s Inbox and call list, too…all without my permission, without me knowing.
And When I knew that he did….My Heart go Numb and speechless.
Speechless. Angry? Should I or Shouldn’t I?…Confront them? …Let it be?
I really don’t know what should I do, what should I think. Are they just want to know what happening in my life? …or else?…
…There’s some part of my life that I wanna keep on my own or share it with the people that I wanna share. Some things are belong to privacy.
About respecting privacy and from past experiences (hm…), sometimes you aren’t well prepared to get too much things that you can handle, or there’s a few things that you should left unfold. You don’t have to know everything. Let it be the art of life and come to you eventually…
And Suddenly I feel lonely…. Do I actually know them, at all? Do I actually can trust them? I’ve been trusting them whole my life.
One thing that came up into my mind is…"The key to get to know people and trust them to be who they are. Instead, we trust people to be who we want them to be- and when they’re not, we cry…."
When mistrust comes in, love goes out. It Happened not just once. Few times. Many times….But again, as far as that…. I always drawn back and trust them, again. Is it wrong to be simply totally love them and trust them back when in reality you don’t know what should you do with what they have done to you?
Ah…What loneliness is more lonely than mistrust….
—>(One SIMPLE Good Idea is CHANGE YOUR YM, Emails whatever important’s PASSWORD!; into something that they can ‘t even think of….)
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