….Give Thanks
This is the hardest thing to do, for me.
I know I’m still one of the luckiest person in this world.
To have what I wished granted by God. Although it doesn’t exactly what I’ve wished for.
But all of it granted. Happened. In different ways. Funny conclusions, weird times, great lessons, amazing experiences….
Still I’m not that thankful.
I Love to whine. I always feel alone. Lonely. I always feel that I’m useless. I’m not that smart. I’m not that pretty. I’m not that attractive.
I always jelaous with somebody else’s life. Somebody else’s opportunities.
I’m always comparing my life with others.
Yet, I’m a lazy girl. Wanting to do lotz of stuff but never finalized any of it.
…. …. ….
I should look back "into" me. What I’ve already got.
…. …. ….
Recently, I’m fighting my own demons. I know I’ve to be thankful.
I know I’m still one of the luckiest person in this world.
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Came back from my hometown, Pontianak– make me realizing and thinking alotz of stuff.
I met my childhood friends there.
They have grown to young adults. ^___^~ (Two of them are getting married next year, WOW!). They aren’t same person as they used to be, -YES they have grown to be a personality with lotz of responsibilities. But they are still my old pals that wanna hang out and joking around with me, taking times out just to accompanied me there withing their tight scedulles…. (I love u guys…You know, How much I appreciate it.)
I do want to help all my friends the best I can…. I want to be at least a lil’ bit part of their life. I hope they don’t mind.
I met my First Love. *aiks*… well, ehm.
(What can I say, he was my First Love….) I got to spend few hours with him and friends….I realize something that. He was my "special someone". I have a crush for him approx. 3 years. Unspoken. *sigh*
I’m still smiling and feel warm everytime I’m thinking of memories that we’ve shared. But…. after I spent time and talked with him, now. I realized that He just a past. He just a memory…. I will keep him as one of my sweet life’s journey.
I ate lotz of Pontianak Food and gain 3 Kg in 3 days.
Hey I don’t blame anyone or anything. That kind of cuisine deserve a great honour to be eaten. *winks….*.
I guess I’ll just admit that I’m fat. 
There’s a lot of thing i wanna do in this life, maybe too much that I can’t finish or complete any of them. Maybe I should start with one first and finish others one by one. Or I’ll never do.
I hope I have time….
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Yay!!!….
Tomorrow by 9:00 something….i’ll be home.
My Sweet Home Alabama..OPs….hehehehe, i mean, Sweet Home Pontianak. ^o^~YAyyy!
Can’t wait to see my Ol’ Pals, hangin` out with them……Yayy!
Can’t wait to go Choir-practice, singing in church full of memories……Yayy!
Can’t wait to enjoy ‘da FOOD! …..*BIG* Yayyy!!!!
Hoping this short-vacation will be GOOOoooD!
Yayyyy!!!
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